stop hurting.

stop hurting.

no more anger.

no more sadness.

no more cry.

is there any problem, sir?

come and share with me.

/tired of this painful day/

hellyeah the trigonometry!

I'm so frustrated because of my #superidiot brain!
I can't answer two of four questions!
what the hell?
ah God, I don't want to have remedial!
I've tried my best!
I've studied for more than 5 hours last night!
But why, I still can't do the best? Why I still can't answer it all?
Please! Gimme a chance to turn back the time so I can answer it all! *wishing

one cherished year

First, i wanna sayHappy anniversary OSIS 2009/2010! :D
It's been a great moment that we've spent together.
We're a great big family, and we will always do, right?
And second, i wanna thank you for all the love, the caress, the support, and every lesson you taught me!
Thank you for being my best friend for this whole year! Thank you for make my days more colorful!
I've learnt so many things in this family! You make me stronger, wiser, and good enough.
I wanna say sorry for all of my mistakes! I'm sorry If I ever hurt you, I'm sorry if I never make you proud, I'm sorry if I ever disappointed you,
I'm sorry If I can't be perfect for you. :(


this is a song from simple plan - perfect!


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for you
I can’t pretend that I’m alright
And you can’t change me
‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect

last, i wanna say a BIGBIG thanks for OSIS 2009/2010!

I Love You all guys!

You'll always be my 'baby'! :)

Cupa cups :* :* :*

/happy/

I did not mean to hurt you

my domo said that!

so what's your answer?

I'm waiting for it!

please forgive me!

tell me something.

/i'm sorry, i love you/ :(

Ranger Ungu, Ranger Unyu

setelah sedih2 dari rumah pak frans, saya langsung ke rumah suami saya.
saya lelah menangis, pengen tiduran, malah dikasih liat film india.
katanya sih filmnya bagus, trus saya tonton eh malah digodain, alhasil saya gak jadi nonton, gak jadi tidur, malah main kitik2an. hahaha konyol!
matahari mulai terik, saatnya saya pulang sebelum ibu mertua ngomel karena saya berantakin rumahnya.
saking capeknya, saya sampe ketiduran di jalan, trus kebnagun karena laper, jadilah kita berada di jon-bakso belakang sekolah-.
urusan perut beres, saatnya pulang!
.....


sorenya suami saya dateng ke rumah membawa gitar!
hari ini saya ada les privat gitar sama suami saya, niatnya sih belajar tapi malah jadi nyanyi2.
capek ah nyanyi terus, akhirnya saya bikin games.
seru sih, tapi bosen ah, trus akhirnya dia mau ngomong sesuatu-keliatannya serius-
aku deg2an takut kalo terjadi apa2, aku gak bisa tenang, aku sampe nahan kentut.
trus akhirnya dia ngomong dengan nada misterius dan muka datar "yang, aku.. aku.. aku RANGER UNGU loh!! HAHAHAHA"
congratz! saya sukses ditipu sama si ranger unyu!
argh! malu aku malu! harga diriku men!
tapi seneng deh, dia selalu bisa bikin aku ketawa ntah dengan cara apapun,
meskipun dengan cara tergoblok, terjayus kayak tadi, tapi saya suka caranya!
dia selalu tau cara membuat saya bahagia, dan itulah yang membuat saya semakin sayang!
awawaw
Thanks dear, ailapyu! :*

selamat jalan pak

hari ini kita dipulangin pagi, yah tentu karena kita mau ngelayat ke rumahnya pak frans.
kita mau menghantarkan kepergiaannya untuk yang terakhir kalinya.
sedih.. haru.. tangisan.. semuanya jadi satu.
sedih rasanya liat kepergian beliau, walaupun saya memang gak terlalu dekat dengan beliau, tapi saya banyak salah sama beliau.
jujur, saya gak pernah merhatiin beliau ngajar (maaf pak), saya juga sering "ngerasani" beliau (maaf pak)
tapi setelah tadi saya lihat mukanya yang bengkak, hitam, pucat, beku, saya terenyuh.
saya menyesal saya belum minta maaf saya sangat bersalah!
yah, yang berlalu biarlah berlalu, saya yakin Tuhan pasti mau memaafkan saya.
selamat jalan pak, semoga anda tenang di sana.

he knows the way

pulang LDKS, langsung disambut dengan pelukan hangat dari dia. *melting part I*

panas2 gini, laper lagi, langsung diajak ngeCK!! :D

ditraktir coca cola + pop mie kesukaanku.

dia meluk erat banget dari belakang.

trus kita ngobrol banyak hal di mobil, sampe aku ketiduran di bahunya.

gobloknya pas dia ngerem kepalaku jatuh, eh jd gak bisa tidur lagi.

tapi enak deh keningku dicium lembut. *melting part II*

*gejolak pengen lagi*

trus dianter ke mcD, pulangnya.......

buka pintu kamar langsung disambut sama 'egigoodboy'!

yeah! another surprise! :D

he gave me a picture of us, with a romantic letter in it! *melting part III*

trus malemnya kita ke toko buku bareng.

berpetualang nyari buku gak penting tapi dihargai +20 point!

pulangnya kita ngeliat bulan. bulannya lagi bulet banget.

kita nyanyi bareng, menikmati suasana, menikmati setiap moment dimana aku masih bisa menghabiskan bareng dia, sampe akhirnya aku pulang dengan keadaan senyum2 sendiri.

yeah, he always knows the way to make me happy, make me smile, make me believe that He's the only one!

Thanks dear :*

Here's the picts. :)

RIP, Mr.Frans!

sekitar pk 18.00
saya mendengar kabar bahwa guru Fisika kita tercinta telah berpulang ke rumah Bapa.
saya shock! kaget! gak menduga kalo sampe seperti ini!
saya turut berduka cita buat Pak Frans..
semoga arwahnya diterima disisiNYA, dan semoga keluarga yang ditinggalkan dapat lebih dikuatkan, ditabahkan, dapat mengikhlaskan dan dihibur dalam kesedihannya.
selamat jalan pak, terima kasih untuk semua ilmu yang bapak beri.
kami sayang bapak!

rollercoaster

LDKS baru aja selesai.
Yeah, finally!
I gotta say goodbye to the elder, and welcome for the new comer.
saya mau cerita tentang masa2 LDKS ini.
LDKS kali ini bener2 amazing! Salut buat semua pihak-khususnya buat panitianya- yg udah nyiapin semuanya buat kita!
Kesan selama LDKS itu saya merasa: Amaze! Unforgettable! Fun! Great experience! Happy! Afraid! Sad! Scare!
sama kayak roller coaster, ketika kamu naik kamu akan merasakan berbagai macam perasaan, takut, deg2an, tpi setelah kamu berhasil turun semuanya akan terasa menyenangkan, lepas, dan bersemangat.
pokoknya LDKS kali ini bener2 banyak mengajarkan saya hal2 positif yg bisa membuat saya semakin berkembang, dari fisik, mental, dan kedewasaan.
Saya banyak belajar tentang semangat, kehidupan jalanan, adaptasi, kekeluargaan, kedewasaan, penerimaan, memahami org lain, nilai2 hidup lain yang bener2 bermanfaat!
Saya jadi harus bersikap dewasa di depan adik2 saya, saya harus jadi panutan-panutan loh ya, bukan panuan- buat adik2 saya.
Berat memang awalnya, tapi saya menjalani ini semua dengan nada dasar C. Cinta!
Saya cinta sama OSIS, saya cinta dengan pilihan hidup saya! Saya cinta akan apa yg saya lakukan!
maka semuanya terasa dimudahkan.


mudah memang untuk menerima org baru, tp buat ngelepas, rasanya susah.
Susah banget! Saya gak rela! gak rela kalo harus kehilangan temen2 OSIS 2009/2010!
Saya gak mau ditinggalin! Saya gak mau kehilangan keluarga PAKSI! Saya gak mau ditinggal Ce Cathy, Ce Ilek, Ko Ricky, Gilly, Celline.
Saya belum siap menggantikan Anthony! Saya belum siap kehilangan teman seperjuangan saya ini!
Sedih! Mereka berarti buat saya! Mereka keluarga saya, yg nemenin saya selama setahun! Yg selalu ada buat saya, yg selalu jd tmpt keluh kesah saya!
Saya belum siap kehilangan mereka.. :'(
Saya belum siap kehilangan OSIS 2009/2010!
Saya belum siap kehilangan PAKSI 2009/2010!
Saya belum siap kehilangan kebahagiaan ini

Special thanks to Ce Cathy!

Makasih buat semua semangat, bimbingan, nasehat, saran, dan perhatian, 

pokoknya You're the best  mother of PAKSI!

makasih juga buat temen2 PAKSI lainnya, yg udah memberi warna buat hidupku!

I love you all guys!

Buat  Ko Anthony Ce Lau, makasih uda jadi bapak dan ibuku di OSIS!

Buat temen2 OSIS lainnya, makasih banyak buat 1 tahun kebersamaan kita!

Maaf kalo saya ada salah!

Saya sayang kalian!

CUPS :*

the call

Tomorrow, I'll leave this town for 3 days because of LDKS.
No phone, no music, no books, no you there!
I'm gonna miss you dear. I'm gonna miss you like crazy!
How can I pass these days without you?
...
I hope that you're gonna be alright.
We can through this together dear.
Just remember how I hugged you before, how we kissed, and every pains will disappear.
And promise me that you'll take care of yourself, promise me that you'll never sleep late again.
Promise me that you wouldn't miss me! I don't want you to miss me, because there's no reason for you to do it so!
Just live your life happily!
I'm watching you here!
Anyway, I have something for you.
Just feel free to come to my house, and take it from my maid.
I'm gonna hit the bed soon!
wish me luck for tomorrow dear
I love ya! CUPS :*

lost in sandwich

Technical Meeting OZ was held today, on 1300 pm.

But we're came too fast. We have to waited for about 2 hours.

We spent our time at Indomaret-on the lobby of Grapen.

We talked about everything, but something make us stopped talking.

And guess what, there is a fly in a sandwich.

Oh gosh, they sell a Rp 10.000 of sandwich with a fly in it!

Yuck! Luckily, I didn't buy it! Hehe

Oh anyway, we're done the drawing, and we're on the group 6!

Hope that 6 is our lucky number that bring us to Aussie!

yeah. Wish us luck all!

another story of us

Firstly,I wanna thank God for the OZ. Yeah,we made it! We're going to the next level,and closer to Australia.
I can't wait for it. I really really want to go there to buy a CD of The Dutson for egi.

Second,I have a TM for LDKS. Shocking?,yeah. It's different from last year. Lebih menantang gitu!
Salut buat panitia yg nyiapin acaranya. Taun ini bener2 dibutuhkan yg berkualitas.
And I hope I can be the one of the qualified one!

Third,I have a date with my big mons! We still rode the veagi! We're about to have a lunch infront of GO.
Our menu today,siomay!
Once again, I hugged him from behind,I can feel his warm back. I love this moment,
When I hug him tight,when we sing together,and yes he stole my heart again!
I hope this feeling won't fade away, until we're getting old!
Wanna hug u again dear, I want to feel the love again! I want to feel your warm back!
I want to hear u whispering 'baby,I love you! Share ur life and be my wife!' :)

Xoxo,
Axelle.

best friend ever

Talk about best friend, I think everyone has their own best friend.
Now, I would like to tell you about my best boy friend ever.
His name is Handi Steven, but you can call him Hans.
He is sixteen years old, and i believe that he has a dick! Hahaha
He is a basketball player same like me. He loves #15.
He loves to playing a game, and read novels. He has a lot of novels anyway. (if u want to borrow some, just call me 08982700xxx)
We've been a best friend since we're in Junior High School, it's about 2 years ago.
We care about each others, we protect each others, and we respect each others.
We always share anything together.
Even though we're apart, we still keep in touch.
We still texting each other just to say hello.
He always there when i call, he always there when i need him.
He hugged me when i'm weak. He cheer me up when I'm sad.
Once, he told me that he wants to be the reason for me to smile.
And yes, he always try to make me smile, make me laugh.
He always give his best for me.
Oh, how cute that guy?

anyway i got some picts of us.

masih muda

tambah konyol

P1.. & P1.....

And now I would like to say million thanks for everything that he does!

Thanks for being  a part of me P!

Thanks for being my best friend that I've ever had!

Thanks for being there whenever I need u!

Thanks for loving me!

Thanks for every little thing u have done to me!

I just wanna say: I love you my peng!

WCL

from OZ to love!

Hari ini, interview OZ loh! Gyaaaaaa
huh hah huh hah huh hah *panik lebay
Okay, stop acting!
*benerin kacamata sok serius
Okeh itu biasa aja axel, gak usah lebay.
Yeah, ternyata memang gak serumit yang aku bayangin.
tp untungnya td interview gak nyampe setengah jam juga uda kelar.
Oh ya, tadi itu sebenernya interview gak sih? Kok ketawa ketiwi tok?
Malah bercandaan soal nama lagi.
Gak nyangka ternyata segampang itu.


Next, saya hari ini lagi falling in love!
Falling for the second, third, forth, fifth, ahh uncountable!
Pokoknya saya lagi jatuh cinta yang kesekian kalinya sama manusia ciptaan Tuhan yang menurut saya mahakeren!
Ah, saya puas dengan semua yang Tuhan beri.
Saya bahagia masih punya perasaan, punya hati, dan punya cinta untuk dishare!
Tapi yang paling membuat saya bahagia karena saya punya orang yang pantas untuk disayangi yang bernama EUGENIUS GUSTI PRANANDA mahasiswa ITS jurusan Teknik Sipil yang ganteng, keren, baik, pinter, penyayang, pokoknya yang kedengarannya berlebihan semua ada di dia!!
Sekali lagi saya berkata U HAVE STOLEN MY HEART DEAR! :*

tons of love,

CUPS! Thanks for loving me! Yeay

U have stolen my heart!

This song is dedicated to my SUPERB bestbestbest BOYFRIEND ever! (y)

"We watched the season pull up
its own stakes,
and catch the last weekend
of the last week.

Before the gold and the glamour
have been replaced, 

another sun-soaked
season fades away.

You have stolen my heart.

You have stolen my heart.

Invitation only,
grant farewells,crushed
the best one of the best ones.

Clear liquor and cloudy eye,

too early to say goodnight.

You have stolen my heart.

You have stolen my heart.

And from the ballroom floor
we are in celebration,

one good stretch
before our hibernation.

Our dreams assured, and we all,
we all sleep well. 

Sleep well, sleep well,

sleep well, sleep well.

You have stolen my,

you have stolen,

you have stolen my heart.

Watch you spin around
in your highest heels,you are
the best one of the best ones!!

We all look like we feel.

You have stolen my,

you have stolen my,

you have stolen my heart."

and yeah, you have stolen my heart,from the first time we met!

You always make me believe that I'm not wrong to choose you as my last person in my life.

You always teach me everything about love, teach me about life.

You always wipe my tears off, you make me stronger than before.

You always be there for me, and you always hugging me whenever I need it.

Oh, why you stolen my heart like this? It's not once, or twice.

You steal it every time!! yeah every time you look my eyes!

I just can't stop thinking of you, i just can't take my eyes off of you.

Ah, this feeling wont fade away dear.

Marry me.marry me! Gyahahaha

thank you for stolen my heart dear.

CUPS! :* 

why i love him?

10 months together, but i'm still confused about something.
Idk the reason why i love him so much.
It's too bad?
At first I think that "Love doesn't need a reason", and yeah it's true!
But sometimes (after spending my time with him) I know the reason.
and the reason are:
1. I need HIM
2. I need HIM
3. I NEED HIM!!!!
It's too much? I don't think so, it is normal!
You can feel the same way to if you already have a boyfriend/girlfriend.


And yes,there's something unusual that happen in my heart every time i'm looking his eyes-the best eyes that i've ever seen!!!
And I love when we ride the veagi, he hold my hand, and we sing together on a sunny day.
I can feel the love, how big is his love for me.
And that's the God's will!
Oh I'm so lucky to have him.






Lucky me!
xoxo
@egigoodboy love you dear!

10th months ann!

It's 12.10.10
My 10th months anniversary with my baby boy, egi!
I've to spend my time with yoke from 7am to 4pm for Anti Drugs Campaign!
After that we spent our longest afternoon to ate Sop Buntut together. We tried to ate all part of the soup(except the bone I mean).
then, we go around, and we talk a lot, bout everything we felt on this special moment.
He walked me home safely, and we continue our conversation with chat.
but idk why, something bad happen. he sign out the chat.
he said that he have something to say, I called him, but he wont speak bout it!
Gosh, i'm turning mad!
What the hell with that guys?
is he do acting?
standing applause for the acting, you played it well!
and thanks you totally turn my whole life so blue!

09/10.10.10

09.10.10
Pameran Pendidikan, dimana semua siswa sibuk tanya" univ, padahal gak ngerti apa yang ditanyain, jd intinya mereka wasting time!
After that, my mom came and I can't breathe (somebody help me!)
huh hah huh hah!
my report card, euhh :(
my teacher warn me about my score!
beside that, i've to prepare myself for the LDKS.
and guess what?
I've to shared everything that i have n I feel happy to do that
i can feel the togetherness, n the loving care
yeah even though there's someone that annoying, but i'm enjoying it.


10.10.10
I've to travel around my school in the dark!
i'm not scare, really, but i'm too tired, and i feel very cold.
In the morning, we've an outbound games, n I enjoyed it.
Oh yeah, it's my mom's birdday!
I've prepared everything for her, n she surprised becoz she got an apron with 'The Best Mom' word on it + a bunch of pink roses.


oh yeah, anyway it's 10.10.10!
why those people always talking about this date?
is it special?
oh it's not that special i thought, they're too hyper!
do you agree with me?

1 week later

1 week later, I have to prepare my self for LDKS
1 week later, my mom's birthday
1 week later, I'll get my report card
and I have to be responsible with my score
I have to prepare for the worst thing that would be happen to me
GOD, HELP ME!!